From the moment I woke up I felt a tension in my shoulders. I had a full day to look forward to. My early morning routine done, I was supposed to be settled in for a successful day ahead.
Instead I felt overwhelmed, overstimulated, overscheduled.
I wanted to back down from something. Put on the brakes. Step outside. Feel the space and freedom of more than a clearly scheduled block of break time. Was this selfish?
Much of what was on my calendar was good, maybe even great. But without the spaces and gaps to savor and enjoy my success, I was running on empty. I felt pulled in too many directions - think salt water taffy in those Rocky Mountain candy store windows.
I felt helpless and hopeless in the midst of a crowd of blessings. What was wrong with me?
I needed to press pause.
Focus on the basic, fundamentals.
Leave time to get bored. Can you even imagine? I couldn’t.
I’m a planner. It’s seems awkward and unnatural to simply create a space of time with nothing scheduled. But that’s exactly what I needed and precisely what I craved.
I needed out from under the scheduling, the tight turn around, the clearly delineated times and places.
I wanted the ability to wander.
The luxury to indulge in more or less, on a whim. Time not cocktails, mind you.
I simply wanted space to stretch out and stay a while, or perhaps head off again right away, to follow what I fancied rather than a predetermined timetable.
So I pressed pause.
And there was push back. Oh there was rebellion and frustration and nearly a full-on tantrum.
I did it anyway. Not because I’m brave or courageous or ready, but because I was exhausted and my well needed filling.
I am feeling clear.
I appreciate this sense of space.
I relish this gift that is filling my well.
When was the last time you felt you had plenty?
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