The dog is cowering under the couch as my tween daughter once again raises her voice and utters an exasperated “ugggghh!” Welcome to our mornings.
Mornings are my favorite time of day. You wouldn’t be able to tell that lately.
You see, I’ve let myself grow angry and frustrated and super critical. I’ve established strict double alarm schedules, nagged and reminded and still, our mornings are often tardy and sometimes even down-right late.
Worst. Feeling. Ever.
I cannot stand being late. I’d rather not go at all.
“Ugggghh!” said my inner voice, and maybe even stamped her foot and rolled her eyes. Why do I have to love everyone? It’s not like everyone is loving ME back!
Wow. I really had no idea I felt that way. I fyou’d asked me I would have labeled myself a “loving” person.
So I replied with this: @bobgoff This makes me really uncomfortable - a sign I definitely need to live into love a bit more...
Here lies the root of a BIG fear for me. Seems I’m willing to hug strangers but reluctant to turn that love onto someone I feel has wronged, angered or disrespected me.
Huggng is easy when I have nothing to lose or let go of.
That’s been the gift of working in Storyline. I’m finding that I’m living more fully INTO the roles I already have in my life. Consciously choosing who I aspire to be as a Mom, as a friend, as a leader and advocate and someday, I hope, as a partner and wife.
And little by little I’ve been living into love more.
Yesterday we were in the kitchen and my daughter was ranting about my request that she finish her homework BEFORE playing Minecraft. In a condescending tone she explained to me her rationale. When I replied I watched her silently mock me and roll her eyes behind me. I took a deep breath before I walked right up to her…
Typically this scene would play out and you could insert angry tone, consequence, and/or 10 more minutes of grumpy back-and-forth.
This time I took a deep breath before I walked right up to her…and hugged her.
She burst into giggles. “What are you doing?” she asked.
Over my own laughter I explained: I’m hugging you. Every time I’m angry or frustrated with you I’m going to hug you. I can’t be angry and hugging you at the same time.
Hugs are powerful.
I don’t have the solution to our mornings, yet. In the meantime, I have a choice about whether I can yell, nag and get frustrated or simply give her a hug and move on.
Sadly there is a big part of me that is so stuck in taking control and trying to change things. I’m putting that aside and listening to my heart and yesterday’s peels of laughter.
For now, hugs are the answer.
I’ve come across these words from Maya Angelou on several occasions recently: “Do the BEST you can until you know BETTER. Then when you know BETTER, do BETTER.”
Now it’s time to apply my KNOWING and turn it into DOING. How about you? What do you KNOW that you’re working on putting into action?
Sending each of you BIG warm hugs, Clea
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